I'm not often at a loss for words, especially the written word. While I may wordsmith something over and over again until it sounds just as I want it to, I feel comfortable expressing myself in writing. But last Monday night as I worked on the email to publicly announce Zoe's closing, I struggled. I had been thinking about it for several days and nothing seemed right. I am not dramatic by nature and wanted my words to be simple, heart-felt, and honest.
I thought back to a quote from Ernest Hemingway that a high school friend of mine had posted on Facebook a few weeks ago. It had touched me at the time and spoke loudly to me now. "It is good to have an end to journey toward: but it is the journey that matters, in the end." Zoe has always been a journey for me. An amazing, life-changing one at that.
What I didn't realize when I used that quote was that I had used the word "journey" in reference to Zoe in my very first blog post on this site. I wasn't sure what the future held 4 years ago when I started out but I knew I would learn and experience a great deal along the way.
In the next month as Zoe's current journey nears its end, we'll take a (mostly) upbeat look at the road I've traveled and include some feedback from some people who've taken the journey with me.
Please don't get me wrong - as much as I am at complete peace with God's Will in this decision, I'm human. I'm grieving. The tears I've shed (including a big cry when I wrote the email on Monday night) aren't the last. On Sunday, a woman came into the store and asked me why we were closing. When I explained to her my reasons why, she said "Oh, you couldn't get someone to take it over for you?" I told her that I had not ever considered that option as Zoe was too personal to me. She looked at me like I was crazy. It's OK. I don't expect everyone to understand. And even more importantly, I don't need them to understand. The people that I care about understand and that's all that matters to me.
So continue on the road with us - I promise it will be a fun one!