Toward the end of November, I read a devotional that I've continued to go back to weekly. The tagline was "You can't change the past, but you'll ruin the present by worrying about the future." The focus that day was on Moses, his awareness of his own weaknesses and his fears regarding what the Lord was asking him to do. God asks Moses to look at what he has before him and how he could trust God to use those things (Exodus 4:1 - 5).
While I'm not destined to do any great things like Moses, he and I do share the same challenges of fear and uncertainty holding us back at times. Like Moses, I often knew what God was telling me to do but would say "No, not really. I'm not capable. This isn't going to work. Think about all that can go wrong." I would wish for a "burning bush" to show me what I should do when He was telling me the whole time (I just wasn't listening or trusting!)
As I look back over the year, I'm thankful that I started listening to God and trusting in Him more. I would never be looking at the joys and fun and excitement of opening my own business had I continued to resist His guidance and direction. Now that I look back, I had LOTS of burning bushes (I'm surprised my hair wasn't on fire!) but I kept refusing to see them. And, ever since I stepped out with that trust, I've found that just about weekly, I had to say "OK, I trust you, God, to show me how I'm going to get through this or how this is going to work. I know there's something in here you want me to know!"
It has been an amazing year. And I'm thankful for all of you who have joined me along the way, loved me, believed in me, and encouraged me. Here comes Zoe!